Lol i just notice that meimei is so damn HOLY ! lol
Thats good !:)
I am so damn bored .
I don't dare to like Msn meimei .
I think she studying .
...
My hand is shaking as i write this
I just have a weird feeling in my heart .
I keep going on to the msn list , look at the name genesis ,stare at it for a long while and say hmmmm should i msn her ?
Then i look down i saw xueting and yuwen .
I am like i think they all talking to her .
Forget it man!


LOL I just wanna pray for alexandra's granny !
R.I.P!
Go into God's arms man !:)

I am just bored . Thinking about history , I randomly though about god .
Mrs H was teaching about war .
During the whole period of time .
I was thinking .
Trying to reflect .
What if there was a war against god's people ?
I keep thinking and thinking , will i choose to leave ? or choose to stay ?
Looking at all the toutures that people suffer, i start to feel Lost .
The feeling of Lost was unbearable.


Plus i have been like having alot alot of mood swings .
I am starting to think that ________ is irrtating because she always do better than me. When i see her doing well in class and i am trying to catch up , I feel like very like abit angry .When her tests get higher than me , i feel lost . Like the world of happiness is gone .
I know that God has special plans for me.
Qiying is like doing 10 times better than me .
Abby is doing 10 times better than me .
Alexia is doing 10 times better than me .
Erica is doing 10 times better than me .
Sarah is doing 10 times better than me .
I don't get how they excell .
Whenever i see them i feel like bowing down my head in shame .
Sometimes hoping that time could just pass quickly .

Labels: The unbearable feeling deep down my heart .