How has today been ? -happy and a bit sian . LOL
Been talking about god for the whole day !
Like finally someone is willing to hear what i say !
Praise the lord for the person !

People who are coming for service on HOLIDAY:
-Airbee
-Alexandra
-Maybe Eunice !

Hey Eunice Thanks for spending your day with me ! Holding my stuff for a while , Walk with me to the bus stop .
Thanks man ! You brighten up my day , starting with a listening ear !
Even though airbee and christabelle like totally SPOILED my day, You Are a great junior and Friend That i could ever had !

From Saturday , i learnt that i have to be greatful for everything even though PEOPLE might not like you ,I can still continue to serve god with all my heart ! And Eunice , you made my day , i love you babe !~~~~~~~~~~~~~

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Whee today was a GREAT DAY THAT THE LORD HAS MADE !
Spend time with huiying and weiling :)
love all of them man . They rawks!
I am so tired !!!!!!!!!!
lol :)
Love god , trying to love people . :)
Btw angela is so cute !

Labels: Nothing can seperate us from the love of god .

Lol I just found out something funny . Like very funny .
I just found out that in my ministry , i am the youngest .
No wonder they keep telling me cold jokes that i dun understand .
And during service , when the man talk i laugh they never laugh .
And when they laugh i dun understand.
lol the man say Even though people might not like you in Church or School or Anywhere , It doesn't mean that we should stop serving god .
I think this sentence is so nice and it is right also . Amen ! lol
LOVE SERVICE ! WISH THAT I CAN GO FOREVER ! HOPE THAT THE TIME AT SERVICE CAN LAST !

My god he made a way , My god he saves the day forever , we will shout your praise !

I think that in the end i can go church because MY GOD HE MADE A WAY !
I should satrt to love god love people.:) JIAYOUS EUGENIA!

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I am starting to love Huiying alot alot .
LOL Huiying you rock my life man .
Got my report book today . abit sian i juat wanna go church man .
Why cant my mum fufil me ?
BTW Huiying stay happy 4ever,Love you !

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Lol . I think i should leave it the way it is .
Just start with new life .
A new life a new relationship with god .
Everything is so great so far .
I mean a few minutes ago .
Except that my dad is so naggy .
HAHA .
My hair is so screwed now . I feel like cutting botak .
New hair style.
:) I am so tired .
If my mum even know that she is stressing me out .
I dun even care anymore , My mum dun even keep her promises .
Lalala i think i should just stay in lala land la .

Labels: Thanks meimei .

I am depressed again .
People say that shower is like a great joy .
But shower is when i remember all my pain .
I HATE THIS !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I got quite high for almost all my subjects only math fail.
My mum ...
Haiz dun wanna talk about it .
Idk why everytime i blog or stare into space , almost everything i do , i end up crying .
Trying to reflect what have i done wrong ?
Or maybe is not me is the people around me .
My life seems so dead .
Expectations are getting higher and higher .
From getting 65 for all my subjects it is now increased to 75 .
Plus the promise is long forgotten .
I HATE IT < PEOPLE KEEP BREAKING MY PROMISES .
When people ask me why am i so sad everyday ?
I am speechless , I am depress ,you understand ?
I doubt anyone understand .

Labels: I was a dreamer before you and you let me down .

Dear diary ,(What i wrote when i had mood swing )
I am like to busy for god(excuse). I seriously need to make time .
Exams and tests are coming up .
I feel like going for Water baptism.
Do i have the right to ?
I feel like geting baptise before my birthday comes .
So that i can be'new born'.
I am hungry but fasting .:(
I dun even think my mum will let me baptise la.
P.L.E.A.S.E...
I.WANNA.GO.FOR.WATER.BAPTISM.AND.CAMP. HELP ME
Wa shit,i wish nobody reads this .Wish that i should just die .
I don't think i should trust anyone already .My trust for everyone has gone.



Suddenly i'm leaving ,suddenly the promise of trust has gone.
Suddenly breathing seems so hard to do.
Carefully you planned it,i got to know that a minute to late,so sad.
Now i understand it,All the times we played together,maybe you were backstabbing me.

Why do i love you , Don't even want to ,Why do i love you like i do ,like i always do .
You should have told me , Why do you have to hurt meeee!!! Why do i love you like i do ....

Labels: Deep down where no one can hear me, I'll be crying for you

I am bored . Dun wanna post . Dun wanna do anything .
I feeel like everything is choking me .
Exams, dun talk about it .
Studies,studies,studies,fast,fast,fast.
Feeling like my whole life is so busy .
My world is spinning.
All i could think of is,What am i doing ?
............
No mood to talk , pms ? Sian .
I am feeling that i am drifted far apart .
I dun think that i am trusting the person that i use to trust.
My heart is messy ,filled with hungryness,anger,sadness,hurt,confused.
I am not sure what to do already .
Should i strive to achieve ? Or should i just tell myself ,take a break Eugenia ?
IDK I am having like no mood .

Labels: If life were the only thing left in me, will you take it ?

It's a tired tired day .
I love ART it is the most joyful thing on earth !
Spend my whole day with alexia hahaha .
Is just like ... We were both young when i first saw you
Lol . I am so in music world . I love art i love music .
I been talking to alexia the whole day ! It is like so joyful!

I would really like to pray for alexia and erica lo, they are like so sad :(
I wish that then will cheer up soon .
I MISS THEM MANXZ ! THEIR TRUE SELF ! ~~~~ :(
BRING BACK,OH BRING BACK,OH BACK ALL OF MY FRIeNDS,TO ME!!
And for Meimei , hope that she will not get sick so often , (you know i cannot live w/o you !)

Labels: I will trade all of their sorrows for my happiness

I am so tired . LOL WOKE UP AT 7++ . MEIMEI's sis so funny ! go and sent me a prank message . Yesterday para weas so cool . Didn't lose all of my movements . So cool !!! Angela was like go eugenia! go eugenia! So so funny , she carry that doll around like a kid :) I want that doll . HAHAHAHH THIS IS JUST PLAIN JEALOUSLY !!!! LOL Angela actually wanted to gimmie that doll and she said dun tell courtney k ? HAHAAHAA Even though i really love the doll , she kissed it already . I dun want to be so extra , they are so 'love birds' together i just spoil it . I am so hungry !!!! BUT I ATE ALOT ALREADY !! CONTROL CONTROL !! AND DON"T GO TO BK's blog !!!!! lol

K the last thing i shall do is emo . That is what meimei taught me, what should i do when i am about to turn emo ? Think of god ? hahhhahaha so spiritual . I thinki s hould shout at anyone again . For the ppl i shout at , i didn't mean to , I am so sorry i am sooo tired this few days , i really need a break ! I been having alot of mood swings . I will die man . My eyes are so tired it just wanna shut down , I will try not to shout at you all k ? I will try my best .

Meanwhile,
god i wanna pray for Chuncky , i pray that she will be well and so that we can continue chatting . Hope that during the period of getting well , she will not be so bored and maybe sms me during class . I am also sorry for shouting at people , i didn't mean to , i am so tired . I try not to be emo or just shut down k ? Forgive me ? Thanks i Love you !
Amen