I just despise Some people la .
I was trying so so so hard to accept that stupid person ,when she dun even care .
Fine , i dun care about her anyway .
She is like Nothing in my life .
absoulutly NOTHING !
Bring her to church is good enough.
I should go with people who appreciate me more .
like alexia or huiying .
Stupid !
I hate you like shit , no point apologising . you broke my heart and i shall not care . You can make my close frinds depise me too,do i look like i seriously care ?
Just lose friends lor , and anyway i know that you are this type of person .

YAY ! i love my minstry !
Can't wait for a new day of study !
Jiayous eugenia!Jiayous everyone!
:) I am a happy kid !

Labels: I know that i can do it .

Study,study,study...
I dun really have time for deep friendships .
I dun care, in order to stive to study , i must sacrifice alot of things
Things that i must sacrify:
1. Friends
2. Money cause evrytime i study , idk what goes into my mouth .
3. Patient
4. Many more things .
Beware , i will be damn fierce if you provoke me !
Better not , Due to the great amount of stress , I will dislike anyone who keep going against me .
I studied From sunday , 4-7.30
Monday , 4-7.30
Tuesday , 3.30-7.30

Going to do list :
Wednesday , shepherding ? gonna like study with alexia before that .
Thursday , Chiong the worksheets , study and than study with CG.
Friday , gonna study with huiying after school.

Labels: i can move the mountains ., With faith

Studied with huiying today !
Cool , i made like full use of the time there .
Studying with her tmr .
Hope that it will be a sucessful one .
I also hope that Huiying will not be sad of her lost wallet ?
Amen .:)
Thanks huiying , i love you!Jiayous for your exams!

Labels: Thank you for the wonderful grace you said today.Thank god for you .

Haiz , so sian .
Had shepherding , it was cool! .
Learnt how to do worship .
Cool !
But abit stressful . LOL .
:) Hope that i can do worship soon , i wanna like try . HEEHEEE!
Today i patch up with abigail .
People say that i am soft-hearted .
I like patched up with her because i saw forgive the person or sth like that somewhere .
Thats good i feel abit less stress .
I dun mind being pangseh all the time .
I just want a good friend who is willing to hear what i say .
Take advices , i dun mind that she doesn't change .
Because not everyone is perfect .
So what if Farah is angry with me and keep gossiping about me .
I dun really care man .
1 good friend is good enough for me .:)
I should just be contented with what i have . I mean i can't live forever .
Yeah .

I made Farah angry ...
I was angry with Abigail ...
I was angry with christabelle ...
I guess the good friend left are denise and alexia ...
I guess in the end i will have no friends ...
I dun feel like talking about it ...
What can i say ?
I seriosly sucks la ...
I cause trouble and more trouble ...
Angriness and angriness ...
Maybe i am just the devil in life .
Hate the life.
Hate the new me.
I just want a close friend that just stick with me , talk to me about god and life .Is that so hard ?

Labels: People keep talking, they keep saying what they like .

Today , something that pissed me happened again.
It have happen many many times for the whole year .
Thinking that i could trust them , i was wrong .
Am i so irratating ?
Am i like the third party to the friendship ?
I feel that i am the burden between people .
I don't hate them , i hate myself .
Sorry God , not saying that i hate you .
I know that you are the one who created me .
Thanks anyway !
I learn that to love , it is not only a feeling that feel good .
But love , is to do every small things for the person .
I took this from the chinese exam paper .
Haiz can't type chinese forget it .
LOL .
I don't care if Abigail and Christabelle keep like pangsehinnn me .
For i know that god will be there with me when i am alone .

Eh Huiying , thanks for yesterday .
I will you all the best in your exams.

Meimei, Thanks for being a good shepherd .
I love you !

Labels: My god he made a way

To those people that i keep having mood swing on, i am so sorry
I am just crazy
I just hate myself k .
I can't stand myself .
sorry meimei .

Labels: i guess i am so wrong . Hate myself ., Thinking that being angry or sad may solve my problems

Argh , My cousin is at my house .
I am still thinking whether i should lock my blog ?
i think i will invite some people only
Ya lor .
I am damn sucky i know .
I despise myself too .
Hate it .

Labels: I'll say you better release me ...

Sian man .
Feel like disintergrating the whole shitty phone .
So irrating .
I dun feel like replying any sms .
So it will be lucky if i reply you .
So damn Sian .
I wanna change my phone in sony phone .
I want the slide slide one .
Damn irratating -.-

Labels: People keep talking, they keep saying what they like .

Lol i just notice that meimei is so damn HOLY ! lol
Thats good !:)
I am so damn bored .
I don't dare to like Msn meimei .
I think she studying .
...
My hand is shaking as i write this
I just have a weird feeling in my heart .
I keep going on to the msn list , look at the name genesis ,stare at it for a long while and say hmmmm should i msn her ?
Then i look down i saw xueting and yuwen .
I am like i think they all talking to her .
Forget it man!


LOL I just wanna pray for alexandra's granny !
R.I.P!
Go into God's arms man !:)

I am just bored . Thinking about history , I randomly though about god .
Mrs H was teaching about war .
During the whole period of time .
I was thinking .
Trying to reflect .
What if there was a war against god's people ?
I keep thinking and thinking , will i choose to leave ? or choose to stay ?
Looking at all the toutures that people suffer, i start to feel Lost .
The feeling of Lost was unbearable.


Plus i have been like having alot alot of mood swings .
I am starting to think that ________ is irrtating because she always do better than me. When i see her doing well in class and i am trying to catch up , I feel like very like abit angry .When her tests get higher than me , i feel lost . Like the world of happiness is gone .
I know that God has special plans for me.
Qiying is like doing 10 times better than me .
Abby is doing 10 times better than me .
Alexia is doing 10 times better than me .
Erica is doing 10 times better than me .
Sarah is doing 10 times better than me .
I don't get how they excell .
Whenever i see them i feel like bowing down my head in shame .
Sometimes hoping that time could just pass quickly .

Labels: The unbearable feeling deep down my heart .

Today is amanda's Bday.
Spend my whole with a huge burn at my leg :(
Lol . I am so tired . I wanna finish all my homework and study even if i am very tired.
Go eugenia ! Go can do it !JIAYOUS!
GO ME ! I CAN DO IT!

Labels: Determination is the key to sucess.

My nose really hurts to the max man .
I am down with flu .
SAY NO TO BIRD FLU AND SWINE FLU!


LOL LAME ! I am just very bored after like 5 hours of chionging homework .
I seriously need to study
I been playing for the whole of holidays .
Maybe not really playing because it's either softball or planning for games
But it was sure a great way of relaxing xD
:) Oh HAPPY DAY ! NIGHTS !

YAY Idk why but like now , blogger seem to keep working , i can post pictures yay ! I think that games yesterday didn't turn out bad , thats good .LOL
I was like talking to qiying yesterday until 12.30 . hahahahahah
I like the name sherllyn.
Somthing like that , COOL RIGHT ?
LOLi just found out it sounded like cherynn
LOL i should change it
Shirlin?
shirlyn?
shirleen?

LOL

Thank god for all the game masters man !
I couldn't have done it without them .
Like noodles without soup , bread without butter .:)
LOVE YA!

Here is a samll quote:
Friendship can weather most things and thrive in thin soil - but it needs a little mulch of letters and phone calls and small silly presents every so often - just to save it from drying out completely.

I can't wait for BBQ !
As in idk how is my game gonna go ?
HAHAHA I tried my best , so i must trust god to make the game sucessful. :)
Hey thanks Yuwen man ! YUWEN YOU ROCK LA !
Thanks for helping me . Remember the are you colourblind ? We said it at the same time . Whats that called ? Fate ?
LOL:)Thanks ar , Btw i think i kill two of your baby frogs xD , OOPS SORRY ! PAISEH !:)

Praying list :
-Cousin,lucas. HEY Dude ! Get well soon k . I am looking forward to your step closer to god ! Hope you really recover , maybe i shall go to your church sometime :) Love ya !<3

-Phoebe! Hey I heard that you can't get your tounges , dun cry kays ? There are still many opportunities ahead of you !:)
CHEER UPS!:)

-HEHEHE BBQ ! Hope the weather will turn out well and the games man !

-Yuwen, Hope that her trip will be nice !

Labels: My god he made a way

Yay , i am so happy today ! Thank god !
I am talking to a babe right now , Guess who's that ? HAHAHAHAH YUWEN!
COURTNEY !!!! IF YOU SEE THIS ? SMS ME NOW ABOUT WHETHER TUESDAY YOU ARE FREE ANOT !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I am so lazy to post !
I love my ministry now
There is this connecter who laughs at everything even though he is older then me .Everytime he laughs , everyone will laugh .
Thank friend!
and thank god for the connector !

Labels: Praise the lord

Haiz . I am very sian now
Once i blink , i feel very dizzy .
Maybe it was because i was so hungry .
I just ate , and i feel like puking .
I think that i am now not really that in the right state .
During training , didn't bring my sport shoes . My leg was very pain , my stomach was very pain. I wanted to faint , was trying to fall down so that my coach dun need to ask me to run . So tired . Keep having the dizzy feeling . Now i am eating ice . zzz So tired . Meimei if you are looking at this , can we dun go gym ?
Nevermind , go la go la . Forget about that . Holiday out of 5 days , 4 days there is training .ARGH SIAN !
I feel so disapointed with myself , very very disapointed . Go eugenia !

Checklist for life
- Did I life my life like the fullest today ? No , don't think so . But i tried
- Did I take any opprtunity that i could ? Err not really , yes la when teacher let let play ipod in class.
- Was i emo today ? Emo ? NO ! Sad ? YES!
- Did I spread the word of god today ? YES!
- Did i make sacrifies for people today ? YES!
- Did i invite people down the church today ? YES!
- Did I do anything that i could to cheer someone up ? YES!
- Did i pray ? Of course !
- Am i closer to god now ? More than yesterday !
- Should i run away from problems? No , i will try my best .

Ms chua is leaving , sian .
I feel like leaving .

Labels: Trading my sorrows for the joy of the lord .