Hating a person is not easy,try loving them!!

2011-01-07T05:25:00.001-08:00

Moved to faith-filled-me.blogspot.com :)

2010-06-01T04:56:00.000-07:00

O lord , ID conference was just GREAT!:D:D
Thank you for telling me that i need to grow more in patience:D
Thank you Eva and Ryan for praying for me during ID conference :D
Thanks , You will be able to be used by God sooo much moreeee :D
LOLs , unfortunately , i have fever .
But Lord , i have the faith that you will heal me .
Thanks everyone who prayed for me . Esp my shepherd , Bk and Shermaine:D
This was what shermaine siad :
Dear God, i just wanna pray for this sister Eugenia here that God, we acknowledge you are the healer of all sicknesses and pain, i just wanna pray you will take away all the discomfort that she is feeling right now, God as you see that she's a sister who is always so willing and obedient to do greater things for you, i pray that you will make her feel better so that she can continue with what she
wants to do and at the same time glorify your name through her actions in Jesus name i pray, AMEN

2010-05-25T06:37:00.000-07:00

I AM SO PISSS OFF AT MY LAPTOP .
But i am gonna have the patience to repost again , becausse i think that god is really really worthy to be praised .
Hey God thanks for today :D:D:D
I really wished that i can share the joy that you have given me to others man .
I AM SO DESPERATE TO JUST HAVE SOME ONE NEW IN OUR LG !
From now on , i wanna really serve god with all my heart , mind and soul .
I wanna serve god through games .
Even though how hard , how tough it might be .
I will perserve .
Thanks Shermaine for helping me <3

2010-05-15T08:52:00.000-07:00

Sing Praise , Sing Praise , Sing praise , Sing Praise .
LOLS , i cant stop parising God for a minute .
He is so worthy to be praised ! Amen ?
HAHAHHAHA:D:D
WOW , i really felt so refreshed after service , I REALLY WNNA SERVE GOD WiTH ALL MY HEART !!!
I WANNA GO FOR COMMUNTIY SERIVE ASAP!!

2010-05-11T04:17:00.000-07:00

YOU-GENIE-AH? says:
hello

[c=21]\m/courtneyy \m/[/c][c=#FFC1E0] Eenie Meenie Miney Mo [/c] says:
hello

YOU-GENIE-AH? says:
LOLS , hey ...
where have you been , i miss you

[c=21]\m/courtneyy \m/[/c][c=#FFC1E0] Eenie Meenie Miney Mo [/c] says:
uhm in a stupid school
hhaha

YOU-GENIE-AH? says:
LOLS
why stupid ?

[c=21]\m/courtneyy \m/[/c][c=#FFC1E0] Eenie Meenie Miney Mo [/c] says:
cos the teacher is annoying
and the so called principal

YOU-GENIE-AH? says:
LOLS
every school also like that ma

[c=21]\m/courtneyy \m/[/c][c=#FFC1E0] Eenie Meenie Miney Mo [/c] says:
i miss stc

YOU-GENIE-AH? says:
wa , long time no see you sttill so pretty
I AM SO JEALOUS

[c=21]\m/courtneyy \m/[/c][c=#FFC1E0] Eenie Meenie Miney Mo [/c] says:
hahaha
where got pretty

YOU-GENIE-AH? says:
you're beautiful
hahahah
i saw ur blog
prettty

[c=21]\m/courtneyy \m/[/c][c=#FFC1E0] Eenie Meenie Miney Mo [/c] says:
haha

[c=21]\m/courtneyy \m/[/c][c=#FFC1E0] Eenie Meenie Miney Mo [/c] says:
thanks

YOU-GENIE-AH? says:
if i am a guy , i will go on a date with you
hahahah
okay i am just laming here
wa , cool
cant believe that i am talking to you
OMG EUGENIA YOU ARE TALKING TO COURTNEY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[c=21]\m/courtneyy \m/[/c][c=#FFC1E0] Eenie Meenie Miney Mo [/c] says:
O___O

YOU-GENIE-AH? says:
hahahahah

[c=21]\m/courtneyy \m/[/c][c=#FFC1E0] Eenie Meenie Miney Mo [/c] says:
wow
haha

YOU-GENIE-AH? says:
u free on friday ?
WE REALLY NEED TO CATCH UP
BEFORE I REALLY DIE
please

[c=21]\m/courtneyy \m/[/c][c=#FFC1E0] Eenie Meenie Miney Mo [/c] says:
friday no
i go see my mum fashion show at church

YOU-GENIE-AH? says:
hahahhaah
Your mum pretty toooo!
HAHAHHAAHAH
u free on sat then ?
wanna come back to church and check out ?
we all miss you to the core

[c=21]\m/courtneyy \m/[/c][c=#FFC1E0] Eenie Meenie Miney Mo [/c] says:
hols cna?
hahaha
i this sat got street evangliam
evanglism**

YOU-GENIE-AH? says:
me saded

[c=21]\m/courtneyy \m/[/c][c=#FFC1E0] Eenie Meenie Miney Mo [/c] says:
sorry
abit busy
hols not alr
hols nothing much to do

YOU-GENIE-AH? says:
hols?
holiday ?
wow ,
THANK GOD FOR THIS OPPORTUNITY TO TALK TO YOU !

[c=21]\m/courtneyy \m/[/c][c=#FFC1E0] Eenie Meenie Miney Mo [/c] says:
hahaha

YOU-GENIE-AH? says:
when you free tell me kay .
I REALLY REALLY REALLY WANNA CATCH UP WITH YOU!
OKAY I SOUND SO DESPO
STOP IT EUGENIA
okay .:/
yeah , i wanna hang out with you
go anywhere also can

[c=21]\m/courtneyy \m/[/c][c=#FFC1E0] Eenie Meenie Miney Mo [/c] says:
hmm okays
wait ahh
i looking at something
ttyl

YOU-GENIE-AH? says:
OKAY

[c=21]\m/courtneyy \m/[/c][c=#FFC1E0] Eenie Meenie Miney Mo [/c] says:
okay hi
haha

YOU-GENIE-AH? says:
hey courtney , did you change number ?

[c=21]\m/courtneyy \m/[/c][c=#FFC1E0] Eenie Meenie Miney Mo [/c] says:
nope

YOU-GENIE-AH? says:
CENCORED right ?
LOLS , i sms you okay ?
cause i in the libraray , i am studying
LOLS
exam period .

[c=21]\m/courtneyy \m/[/c][c=#FFC1E0] Eenie Meenie Miney Mo [/c] says:
hmm okays

YOU-GENIE-AH? says:
if i could i wish that i can talk to you forever

[c=21]\m/courtneyy \m/[/c][c=#FFC1E0] Eenie Meenie Miney Mo [/c] says:
text me anytime
im always free to text

YOU-GENIE-AH? says:
YAY , REALLY ?
I LOVE YOU COURTNEY !

[c=21]\m/courtneyy \m/[/c][c=#FFC1E0] Eenie Meenie Miney Mo [/c] says:
lawll

2010-05-11T03:57:00.001-07:00

You're beatutiful to me ,You'll be my song , for all eternity...
OMG < GOD < THANKS!<3
I AM TALKING TO COURTNEY , I MEAN COURTNEY , AGAIN , COURTNEY !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I AM SOOOOOO EXCITED :D
Haven been talking to her and catching up with her .
I REALLY MISS HER !<3
GOD THANKS FOR GIVING ME THIS CHANCE!
WA, SO EXCITED .
I will upload the conversation later :D:D
BRB TALKING TO MY DEAR < COURTNEY!:D:D

2010-05-10T02:28:00.001-07:00

LOLS , i finally have important sorry is ...
I went for service on sat .
Pastor Shirley said : sorry is the most important thing in any relationship.
Then comes thank you .
Then lastly , i love you :D:D

2010-05-07T08:16:00.000-07:00

People around me always say

I Love Jesus!

I wanna ask this question , is it true ?
You live everyday of your life like God does not even exist about your life .
Does it feel that good to hurt me ?
You dun even say please and thank you when people do things for you .
And when u make people pissed off , u dun say srry ,
Is it just me that i am tooo , u know , sensitive ?
Or are you just taking my forgivenesss for granted ?
I dun care if u dun apologise u to me .
But can i ask you , if you do sth wrong to Jesus , do you just say

OH , God will forgive me , anyway eugenia forgave me even w/o me apologising ...

Or would you repent ?
Idk , but i just want you to know , treat others the way you want others to treat you .I am not perfect , but i just want to say this to you but not dare to say this in your face . Hope that you would just read . Thanks .

2010-05-07T08:03:00.000-07:00

Lord , i give you my heart , i give you my soul .
I live for you alone .
Every breath that i take , every moment i am awake.
Lord have your way in me :D

LOLS , even though my days are not so Amazing everyday .
But i am willing to give it all to Jesus .
Am i studying because of anything ? Or i wanna glorify God ?
This questions popped into my head like crazy .
Why is it like that lord ?
I dun care about people already , today hang out with lg , end up going home feeling so pisssed off at someone .
I HATE THIS KIND OF FEELING , JUST MAKE IT END !

2010-05-05T23:15:00.000-07:00

LOLS , i am like in a corner of the library , like emoing like that , so werid:D:D
HAHAHA , today maths paper was okay la :D:D
Cant do the question worth 13 marks D:D:
Well i belief that paper 1 can pull me up :D:D
HAHAH Love maths :D:D
Cant believe that i am stoning everyday , it really brings out the joy in me .:D

2010-05-04T05:12:00.000-07:00

LOLS , after so long i am still at the library ..
Hahahaha , i just went there after school .
Like i was doing maths until now.
Wa brainlessly doing , super sian D;
HAHAHAHAHAH , but anyways , thanks IYUN !:D
Thanks for helping me tie hair , it looks cool :D
And Jiayous for exam peeps:D:D

2010-05-02T17:22:00.000-07:00

hahhaahha ,Thanks meimei and WL for keeping me company ytd.LOve you!
hahaha thanks chloe too!

2010-05-02T04:23:00.000-07:00

LOLS , i went through all my photos when i was young , I LOOK BOTAK !OMG!
HAHAH ytd , was a really fruitful day!
I am gonna start giving money to god , i mean like everything I have is God's right? HAHAH and i am gonna live with god throughout my days now :D:D
LOVE GOD TO THE MAXED!:D:D<3
Ytd saw Samantha Lam at my mum's drink stall , fate aint it ?
Maybe it is only me to think that it is fate or what so ever .
But others might not think so D;
YAY!I am a potential shepherd!:D
I am happy , God is happy !<3
Thanks god for this opportuninty:D:D

2010-04-30T01:45:00.000-07:00

lol i am in the lib now :D:D ttyl:D:D

2010-04-29T02:02:00.000-07:00

HEY!
Tday was a great day !:D:D
Hmmmm , social studies paper,hahaha i was like chionging all the way
Really hope that i will passs:D:D

2010-04-28T01:42:00.000-07:00

LOLS, tomorrow got exam
LOLs , i just seem so confident when i didnt even study .
That was , amazing :D:D the feeling of it WAS SO GREAT !
hahahahah , ok lur , dun play play liao , i go study :D:D BYes!:D

2010-04-27T05:07:00.000-07:00

Today , i went out with Yw,Rach,Jw,Cy.
Errr , it was okay lurh , as we went from places to places .
Got to spend quality time with each other .
I even met my cousieee at Jurong point .
The bad thing was that idk why when my cousin came , they all walked very fast .
When i was still in the shop , i saw Yw looking out for me as their leaving , but the rest just literally drag her off .
Then i was like , God , is it just me , or i see it happening in my face ?
I decided then to just follow them w/o saying anything .
Maybe they might just turn around and maybe start to make friends with my cousin.
But apparently , no.
They continued walking so fast leaving me and my cousin no chioce but to just walk slowly .
Maybe they didnt know that they were giving us that 'why are you here for' face.
So i dun blame them and just said that i Got to go . As a left , i felt tears rolling down .
Maybe in the end , they were able to bond much more better w/o me .

So i prayed ,
Dear God ,
thanks for giving me this test of patience .
thanks for giving me the chance of talking to my cousin .
Maybe i am just to selfish to think that they have to make this type of sacrifies for me . I should be the sacrifies maker not them ....

After i prayed , i felt more calmer .
And i know , Hey God , You use me today !:D

2010-04-26T03:06:00.000-07:00

WA! finally got my blog done up !
SO happy ! hahahahah, Thanks god!!!!!!<3
LOL, today was a so so day , it rained very heavily , so i slept during chinese compre , pray that i dun fail D;
hahahah, went out with YW , Rach , JW and CY
HAHAHHA, Nearly puked sitting on the Merry-go-roundD;
HAHAHAH , praying time :D:D

Dear God , i pray that you would give people the mind to think during exam :D
I really hope that people will not feel so cui and encourage each other during this period of time . I love you !:D:D

2010-04-25T08:12:00.000-07:00

Wa , looking back right , i haven been posting .
I missed those days which i really commiteed myself to blog + god
i litterally talk about god in every post .
Haiz i guess things just change , sometimes i feel myself backsliding soon , thanks god meimei where there to get hold of me and to remind me that god is there .:D
Thanks meimei , thanks God!<3
hahaha, so ya , i think today is quite welll.
Ytd ,i remember telling annqi that i have not mush problems.
then she told me , no problems= no growth .
i was like so devastated . Why ?
Or maybe , i am just not taking life so seriously like i used to be ?

2010-02-04T05:39:00.000-08:00

Fnding good friends ~
If you are a friend come to me .
I didnt say perfect friend .
just dun break my heart .

2010-02-04T05:31:00.000-08:00

Proverbs10:30
I am gonna read it and refect on it .
I am not satisfied to do it my own way , i shall leave it all up to god .
I am not angry and i am not pissed .
I need time to reflect and heal for myself.
I dun despise anyone , if they dun despise me first.
Life is so fake , is like a wallpaper .
i want to tear apart the wallpaper I want to see the world that is destroyed .
Not a world that is being wrapped up that its so hard to breathe .
Just take it easy , just breathe .

ILOVEYOU

2010-01-26T23:10:00.001-08:00

I finally found out my reason for joining ________.
Thanks for letting me know , i will pereserve forever thanks:D
I LOVE YOU <3
I WILL NEVER EVER FORGET YOU .

2009-12-25T20:48:00.000-08:00

can i practice what i preach?
love Jesus , i am going chc :D

Living in my own world~ Hi eugenia!

2009-11-29T07:08:00.000-08:00

BLOG BLOGGING BLOGER !~
STONE STONING STONER!~~
WA damn freaking lame can
I seriously got nothing to do .
So tired
Have double QT to do .
Why are people so evil ?
I am trying to change the live of not doing QT at all to doing a QT !
NOW another QT To go .
I tell you EUGENIA , i wish you a best of luck man .
I doubt i will stay for long .
I already abit dun feel like doing QT already.
I feel so dishearten .

2009-11-29T03:32:00.000-08:00

I think mapling is a good thing to do.
I mean like you get to make loads and loads of nice and cool friend :)
Sometimes things just does not go the right way as i expected .
But i am glad to have Weiling as a LGL!:)
Weiling , i am so gonna get that cap .
:) I love the cap that weiling saw and took our picture in !:)
But people i tell you what , F.Y.I i am not addicted to maple .
Whoever that say that , i am correcting you .
I am not addicted .
If YOU can have any way to release stress , why can't I ?
If YOU can have the person to trust , why can't i have to game to trust ?
I like the friends i made in maple .
People dun like maple just because it is lame , but i use maple as a relaxing way after a long long day .
If you were to comment about me addicted to maple , i've got nothing to say .
Because friends should like you who you are , not because of what you do everyday counts .

Think , change , grow ~~~

2009-11-27T04:09:00.000-08:00

I am gonna start to think of the things that i have done wrong and try to change .
If i need to change , tell me . thanks
If you need to change , i will tell you :D
I am gonna start growing , if i don't grow that means i am dead .

I lay every burden down .

2009-11-23T20:54:00.000-08:00

yesterday was great :)
Swam Swam and Swam .
Or should i say i ate macs in the pool
i droped mac spicy into it xD
and in order not to make the guy feel gross , i ate it again .
it was so spicy till i drank the water in the pool :).

2009-11-12T18:39:00.000-08:00

LOL looking at my last time photos , i noticed that i was botak ..
Ok thats not the point ...
I notice that i have grown .
in everything ,... and + alot sideways xD

idk sia , i keep thinking that ___________ is bias .
Dun talk about it , think of ___________ no more .

2009-11-09T05:16:00.000-08:00

Sian , things are not the thing i wanted ....
Sooooooooooooooooooo irratating .
ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ
Sian ...
Happy birthday qiying ...
Hope you will come for training .

I hit a home run today.
it is still not sastisfying .
i ran home from tiong in the rain today , i hope i will get sick .
I TOTALLY NEED A BREAK FROM EVERYTHING !
forgetit ...

Sometimes i feel no one understands, i don't even know why i do the things i do .

2009-11-08T07:13:00.000-08:00

I am very tired .
People are too bored to the extand that they use stupid ways to break people down .
I hope that next time they seee their own malu picture , i hope that they will just ____________________________________________________________________________..
Forget it , these people aren't worth blogging for .

:)

2009-11-02T22:34:00.000-08:00

I think what Alexia say is right ,
People is scary ... They just put on a mask in front of you like everyday ...
Just when you really trust and love the person , the person will just backstab you and do nasty things to you .
I was just like texting Eevoon last night .
I think that she is naggy but Very nice :)
She said:
In a church , everyone is imperfect, and everyone of us sins .
However , we all strive to change and be more like jesus .
For those that are far away from god , we help them grow .
We help one another to grow , and by that , we will sin and step on each other toes .
That is when we need god's love to love them and see them through god's eyes .
Everytime you feel sad , disapointed , look to god for he never fails!
Trust in him and never give up !
He'll make things work:)

I never knew that someone like her who is not even close to me could encourage me , give me a lesson . Thanks! :)
Like you know , sometimes when i face problems like this , i will ask poeple .
Sometimes people are toooo busy for us .
So it was not easy finding an answer to our problems .
But i was so touch cause she like practically replied all my messages with a very nice tone and touching words .
Thankyou !<3

2009-10-28T05:51:00.000-07:00

YAY ! You know what >?
I bought a new dress !
Again > YES AGAIN~!
LOL From topshop , it is like 49 bucks !
From like 113 Bucks , got sale become 49 bucks !
I LOVE IT ! I AM GONNA WEAR IT ON HOMECOMING !
Thanks alexia for shopping with me!

2009-10-21T06:30:00.000-07:00

Today Qiying came to my house ...
COOL!:) HAHAHAHHAHAHA
Here are some pictures!:)

2009-10-21T03:24:00.000-07:00

I am very tired today ...
Cried like for sooo long .
From after recess till end of school .
THANKS CG FOR MAKING ME HAPPY!
AND I SPENT 12 BUCKS ON THE STUPID TOY MACHINE THAT CHEATED OUR MONEY.
The bear that we wanted dropped out of the platform after we tried for 12 times -.-
I MUST BE STRONG!

2009-10-20T00:47:00.000-07:00

I think yesterday was soooo screwed
My bday somemore.
Smart people could think that i was not happy all along .
But i dun care ...
YEAH! Thanks meimei !:)
Thanks for cheering me up , thanks weiling for giving me good advices !:)
Next time my bday , just sit at home and talk to you all !:)

MeiMei:
PAPAA! GOT COCKROACH!
PAPA KILL THAT CHACHA !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!111

Eugenia:
LAUGHS FOR LIKE 5 minutes .
and Btw where is BOBO ?

You all get the joke ? BOBO CHACHA

2009-10-13T05:22:00.001-07:00

So sian .
EUGENIA GO STUDY !
I can't seem to study .
Feel so stupid now .
GO and die la . Damn you .

2009-10-12T02:14:00.000-07:00

HAHA , today ...
EXAM . DAmn , totally screwed it .
lol poems and poems , prose and prose .
Ok i had 20 minuted remaining .
So i decided to do poem .

The randomness!:)
Having a child like faith,
Walking with a bounce,
Reminds me of the times where ,
Pigs may fly with a tap of imagination

Walking hand by hand,
Two by two,
Don't you find it meaningless?

Solving conflicts one by one,
Just by confessing,
Is that hard ?

Say a prayer before the day,
For it is the lord,
Who saves the day!:)

I like this poem .
I shall name it the Eugenia's poem !

2009-10-08T05:32:00.001-07:00

Now i should blog ...
So damn tired mahn , been studying , studying and studying .
I dun think i can take it anymore .
I am about to faint seh .
So good for those people who end exams .
Chewy junior drop on my hand today .
I feel like snoozing , it is a blessing k .

2009-10-06T06:39:00.000-07:00

Damn , i notice that i put on 3kg .
I dun care man . after exams i will go for whatever maraton that i can organise man .
I am so going to chiong to lose weight .
i dun care if i die man .
To-do-list:
1)Swimming from day to night .
2)Cylcling from day to night .
3)running maybe , cause got training .
4)Skipping non-stop for 300 times , which i dun think can hahahah.
5)Organise a wet day like activities for a church near-by .
6)scratch my leg 2000 times .

I thnk my wishlist is done , LOL lastly dream for 20 dreams in a row .
I should dream now .
Bubu !<3

2009-10-03T20:04:00.000-07:00

Thank god for the service yesterday .
Like also no minstry .
Cheer me up a little ...
:)Bk is right , we should like encourage people in our class or our school and not if they say die la the paper so hard we also follow and say ya lor i die with you .
We should like JIAYOUS man , work hard together .
Yeah ! Chinese paper tomorrow .
Hope that i can do well my oral alr suck .
Dun even know how to say i phone , so i say what the phone can touch and press one .
HAHAHAHAHAAH I am so totally looking forwad to the next study period With huiying !

2009-09-30T22:49:00.000-07:00

I just despise Some people la .
I was trying so so so hard to accept that stupid person ,when she dun even care .
Fine , i dun care about her anyway .
She is like Nothing in my life .
absoulutly NOTHING !
Bring her to church is good enough.
I should go with people who appreciate me more .
like alexia or huiying .
Stupid !
I hate you like shit , no point apologising . you broke my heart and i shall not care . You can make my close frinds depise me too,do i look like i seriously care ?
Just lose friends lor , and anyway i know that you are this type of person .

2009-09-29T20:21:00.000-07:00

YAY ! i love my minstry !
Can't wait for a new day of study !
Jiayous eugenia!Jiayous everyone!
:) I am a happy kid !

2009-09-29T06:44:00.000-07:00

Study,study,study...
I dun really have time for deep friendships .
I dun care, in order to stive to study , i must sacrifice alot of things
Things that i must sacrify:
1. Friends
2. Money cause evrytime i study , idk what goes into my mouth .
3. Patient
4. Many more things .
Beware , i will be damn fierce if you provoke me !
Better not , Due to the great amount of stress , I will dislike anyone who keep going against me .
I studied From sunday , 4-7.30
Monday , 4-7.30
Tuesday , 3.30-7.30

Going to do list :
Wednesday , shepherding ? gonna like study with alexia before that .
Thursday , Chiong the worksheets , study and than study with CG.
Friday , gonna study with huiying after school.

2009-09-27T06:37:00.000-07:00

Studied with huiying today !
Cool , i made like full use of the time there .
Studying with her tmr .
Hope that it will be a sucessful one .
I also hope that Huiying will not be sad of her lost wallet ?
Amen .:)
Thanks huiying , i love you!Jiayous for your exams!

2009-09-25T06:17:00.000-07:00

Haiz , so sian .
Had shepherding , it was cool! .
Learnt how to do worship .
Cool !
But abit stressful . LOL .
:) Hope that i can do worship soon , i wanna like try . HEEHEEE!
Today i patch up with abigail .
People say that i am soft-hearted .
I like patched up with her because i saw forgive the person or sth like that somewhere .
Thats good i feel abit less stress .
I dun mind being pangseh all the time .
I just want a good friend who is willing to hear what i say .
Take advices , i dun mind that she doesn't change .
Because not everyone is perfect .
So what if Farah is angry with me and keep gossiping about me .
I dun really care man .
1 good friend is good enough for me .:)
I should just be contented with what i have . I mean i can't live forever .
Yeah .

Some love isn't meant to be .

2009-09-24T02:58:00.000-07:00

I made Farah angry ...
I was angry with Abigail ...
I was angry with christabelle ...
I guess the good friend left are denise and alexia ...
I guess in the end i will have no friends ...
I dun feel like talking about it ...
What can i say ?
I seriosly sucks la ...
I cause trouble and more trouble ...
Angriness and angriness ...
Maybe i am just the devil in life .
Hate the life.
Hate the new me.
I just want a close friend that just stick with me , talk to me about god and life .Is that so hard ?

Loving someone who is difficult to love .

2009-09-22T04:09:00.000-07:00

Today , something that pissed me happened again.
It have happen many many times for the whole year .
Thinking that i could trust them , i was wrong .
Am i so irratating ?
Am i like the third party to the friendship ?
I feel that i am the burden between people .
I don't hate them , i hate myself .
Sorry God , not saying that i hate you .
I know that you are the one who created me .
Thanks anyway !
I learn that to love , it is not only a feeling that feel good .
But love , is to do every small things for the person .
I took this from the chinese exam paper .
Haiz can't type chinese forget it .
LOL .
I don't care if Abigail and Christabelle keep like pangsehinnn me .
For i know that god will be there with me when i am alone .

Eh Huiying , thanks for yesterday .
I will you all the best in your exams.

Meimei, Thanks for being a good shepherd .
I love you !

2009-09-20T22:44:00.000-07:00

To those people that i keep having mood swing on, i am so sorry
I am just crazy
I just hate myself k .
I can't stand myself .
sorry meimei .

2009-09-20T22:40:00.001-07:00

Argh , My cousin is at my house .
I am still thinking whether i should lock my blog ?
i think i will invite some people only
Ya lor .
I am damn sucky i know .
I despise myself too .
Hate it .

2009-09-20T05:50:00.000-07:00

Sian man .
Feel like disintergrating the whole shitty phone .
So irrating .
I dun feel like replying any sms .
So it will be lucky if i reply you .
So damn Sian .
I wanna change my phone in sony phone .
I want the slide slide one .
Damn irratating -.-

2009-09-17T05:49:00.000-07:00

Lol i just notice that meimei is so damn HOLY ! lol
Thats good !:)
I am so damn bored .
I don't dare to like Msn meimei .
I think she studying .
...
My hand is shaking as i write this
I just have a weird feeling in my heart .
I keep going on to the msn list , look at the name genesis ,stare at it for a long while and say hmmmm should i msn her ?
Then i look down i saw xueting and yuwen .
I am like i think they all talking to her .
Forget it man!

LOL I just wanna pray for alexandra's granny !
R.I.P!
Go into God's arms man !:)

I am just bored . Thinking about history , I randomly though about god .
Mrs H was teaching about war .
During the whole period of time .
I was thinking .
Trying to reflect .
What if there was a war against god's people ?
I keep thinking and thinking , will i choose to leave ? or choose to stay ?
Looking at all the toutures that people suffer, i start to feel Lost .
The feeling of Lost was unbearable.

Plus i have been like having alot alot of mood swings .
I am starting to think that ________ is irrtating because she always do better than me. When i see her doing well in class and i am trying to catch up , I feel like very like abit angry .When her tests get higher than me , i feel lost . Like the world of happiness is gone .
I know that God has special plans for me.
Qiying is like doing 10 times better than me .
Abby is doing 10 times better than me .
Alexia is doing 10 times better than me .
Erica is doing 10 times better than me .
Sarah is doing 10 times better than me .
I don't get how they excell .
Whenever i see them i feel like bowing down my head in shame .
Sometimes hoping that time could just pass quickly .

Amanda , If you can see this , I really wanna wish you a happy happy birthday !:D

2009-09-16T04:04:00.001-07:00

Today is amanda's Bday.
Spend my whole with a huge burn at my leg :(
Lol . I am so tired . I wanna finish all my homework and study even if i am very tired.
Go eugenia ! Go can do it !JIAYOUS!
GO ME ! I CAN DO IT!

2009-09-13T09:39:00.000-07:00

My nose really hurts to the max man .
I am down with flu .
SAY NO TO BIRD FLU AND SWINE FLU!

LOL LAME ! I am just very bored after like 5 hours of chionging homework .
I seriously need to study
I been playing for the whole of holidays .
Maybe not really playing because it's either softball or planning for games
But it was sure a great way of relaxing xD
:) Oh HAPPY DAY ! NIGHTS !

2009-09-13T00:43:00.000-07:00

YAY Idk why but like now , blogger seem to keep working , i can post pictures yay ! I think that games yesterday didn't turn out bad , thats good .LOL
I was like talking to qiying yesterday until 12.30 . hahahahahah
I like the name sherllyn.
Somthing like that , COOL RIGHT ?
LOLi just found out it sounded like cherynn
LOL i should change it
Shirlin?
shirlyn?
shirleen?

LOL

2009-09-11T19:33:00.000-07:00

Thank god for all the game masters man !
I couldn't have done it without them .
Like noodles without soup , bread without butter .:)
LOVE YA!

Here is a samll quote:
Friendship can weather most things and thrive in thin soil - but it needs a little mulch of letters and phone calls and small silly presents every so often - just to save it from drying out completely.

2009-09-09T19:46:00.000-07:00

I can't wait for BBQ !
As in idk how is my game gonna go ?
HAHAHA I tried my best , so i must trust god to make the game sucessful. :)
Hey thanks Yuwen man ! YUWEN YOU ROCK LA !
Thanks for helping me . Remember the are you colourblind ? We said it at the same time . Whats that called ? Fate ?
LOL:)Thanks ar , Btw i think i kill two of your baby frogs xD , OOPS SORRY ! PAISEH !:)

Praying list :
-Cousin,lucas. HEY Dude ! Get well soon k . I am looking forward to your step closer to god ! Hope you really recover , maybe i shall go to your church sometime :) Love ya !<3

-Phoebe! Hey I heard that you can't get your tounges , dun cry kays ? There are still many opportunities ahead of you !:)
CHEER UPS!:)

-HEHEHE BBQ ! Hope the weather will turn out well and the games man !

-Yuwen, Hope that her trip will be nice !

2009-09-07T07:25:00.000-07:00

2009-09-05T20:16:00.000-07:00

Yay , i am so happy today ! Thank god !
I am talking to a babe right now , Guess who's that ? HAHAHAHAH YUWEN!
COURTNEY !!!! IF YOU SEE THIS ? SMS ME NOW ABOUT WHETHER TUESDAY YOU ARE FREE ANOT !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I am so lazy to post !
I love my ministry now
There is this connecter who laughs at everything even though he is older then me .Everytime he laughs , everyone will laugh .
Thank friend!
and thank god for the connector !

2009-09-03T05:20:00.000-07:00

Haiz . I am very sian now
Once i blink , i feel very dizzy .
Maybe it was because i was so hungry .
I just ate , and i feel like puking .
I think that i am now not really that in the right state .
During training , didn't bring my sport shoes . My leg was very pain , my stomach was very pain. I wanted to faint , was trying to fall down so that my coach dun need to ask me to run . So tired . Keep having the dizzy feeling . Now i am eating ice . zzz So tired . Meimei if you are looking at this , can we dun go gym ?
Nevermind , go la go la . Forget about that . Holiday out of 5 days , 4 days there is training .ARGH SIAN !
I feel so disapointed with myself , very very disapointed . Go eugenia !

Checklist for life
- Did I life my life like the fullest today ? No , don't think so . But i tried
- Did I take any opprtunity that i could ? Err not really , yes la when teacher let let play ipod in class.
- Was i emo today ? Emo ? NO ! Sad ? YES!
- Did I spread the word of god today ? YES!
- Did i make sacrifies for people today ? YES!
- Did i invite people down the church today ? YES!
- Did I do anything that i could to cheer someone up ? YES!
- Did i pray ? Of course !
- Am i closer to god now ? More than yesterday !
- Should i run away from problems? No , i will try my best .

Ms chua is leaving , sian .
I feel like leaving .

2009-08-31T05:18:00.000-07:00

How has today been ? -happy and a bit sian . LOL
Been talking about god for the whole day !
Like finally someone is willing to hear what i say !
Praise the lord for the person !

People who are coming for service on HOLIDAY:
-Airbee
-Alexandra
-Maybe Eunice !

Hey Eunice Thanks for spending your day with me ! Holding my stuff for a while , Walk with me to the bus stop .
Thanks man ! You brighten up my day , starting with a listening ear !
Even though airbee and christabelle like totally SPOILED my day, You Are a great junior and Friend That i could ever had !

From Saturday , i learnt that i have to be greatful for everything even though PEOPLE might not like you ,I can still continue to serve god with all my heart ! And Eunice , you made my day , i love you babe !~~~~~~~~~~~~~

2009-08-30T06:01:00.000-07:00

Whee today was a GREAT DAY THAT THE LORD HAS MADE !
Spend time with huiying and weiling :)
love all of them man . They rawks!
I am so tired !!!!!!!!!!
lol :)
Love god , trying to love people . :)
Btw angela is so cute !

2009-08-29T05:01:00.000-07:00

Lol I just found out something funny . Like very funny .
I just found out that in my ministry , i am the youngest .
No wonder they keep telling me cold jokes that i dun understand .
And during service , when the man talk i laugh they never laugh .
And when they laugh i dun understand.
lol the man say Even though people might not like you in Church or School or Anywhere , It doesn't mean that we should stop serving god .
I think this sentence is so nice and it is right also . Amen ! lol
LOVE SERVICE ! WISH THAT I CAN GO FOREVER ! HOPE THAT THE TIME AT SERVICE CAN LAST !

My god he made a way , My god he saves the day forever , we will shout your praise !

I think that in the end i can go church because MY GOD HE MADE A WAY !
I should satrt to love god love people.:) JIAYOUS EUGENIA!

2009-08-28T05:02:00.000-07:00

I am starting to love Huiying alot alot .
LOL Huiying you rock my life man .
Got my report book today . abit sian i juat wanna go church man .
Why cant my mum fufil me ?
BTW Huiying stay happy 4ever,Love you !

2009-08-26T03:37:00.000-07:00

Lol . I think i should leave it the way it is .
Just start with new life .
A new life a new relationship with god .
Everything is so great so far .
I mean a few minutes ago .
Except that my dad is so naggy .
HAHA .
My hair is so screwed now . I feel like cutting botak .
New hair style.
:) I am so tired .
If my mum even know that she is stressing me out .
I dun even care anymore , My mum dun even keep her promises .
Lalala i think i should just stay in lala land la .

2009-08-25T05:23:00.000-07:00

I am depressed again .
People say that shower is like a great joy .
But shower is when i remember all my pain .
I HATE THIS !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I got quite high for almost all my subjects only math fail.
My mum ...
Haiz dun wanna talk about it .
Idk why everytime i blog or stare into space , almost everything i do , i end up crying .
Trying to reflect what have i done wrong ?
Or maybe is not me is the people around me .
My life seems so dead .
Expectations are getting higher and higher .
From getting 65 for all my subjects it is now increased to 75 .
Plus the promise is long forgotten .
I HATE IT < PEOPLE KEEP BREAKING MY PROMISES .
When people ask me why am i so sad everyday ?
I am speechless , I am depress ,you understand ?
I doubt anyone understand .

IDK HOW TO START :(,here i go . :)

2009-08-24T00:50:00.000-07:00

Dear diary ,(What i wrote when i had mood swing )
I am like to busy for god(excuse). I seriously need to make time .
Exams and tests are coming up .
I feel like going for Water baptism.
Do i have the right to ?
I feel like geting baptise before my birthday comes .
So that i can be'new born'.
I am hungry but fasting .:(
I dun even think my mum will let me baptise la.
P.L.E.A.S.E...
I.WANNA.GO.FOR.WATER.BAPTISM.AND.CAMP. HELP ME
Wa shit,i wish nobody reads this .Wish that i should just die .
I don't think i should trust anyone already .My trust for everyone has gone.

Suddenly i'm leaving ,suddenly the promise of trust has gone.
Suddenly breathing seems so hard to do.
Carefully you planned it,i got to know that a minute to late,so sad.
Now i understand it,All the times we played together,maybe you were backstabbing me.

Why do i love you , Don't even want to ,Why do i love you like i do ,like i always do .
You should have told me , Why do you have to hurt meeee!!! Why do i love you like i do ....

2009-08-22T20:31:00.000-07:00

I am bored . Dun wanna post . Dun wanna do anything .
I feeel like everything is choking me .
Exams, dun talk about it .
Studies,studies,studies,fast,fast,fast.
Feeling like my whole life is so busy .
My world is spinning.
All i could think of is,What am i doing ?
............
No mood to talk , pms ? Sian .
I am feeling that i am drifted far apart .
I dun think that i am trusting the person that i use to trust.
My heart is messy ,filled with hungryness,anger,sadness,hurt,confused.
I am not sure what to do already .
Should i strive to achieve ? Or should i just tell myself ,take a break Eugenia ?
IDK I am having like no mood .

2009-08-03T01:15:00.000-07:00

It's a tired tired day .
I love ART it is the most joyful thing on earth !
Spend my whole day with alexia hahaha .
Is just like ... We were both young when i first saw you
Lol . I am so in music world . I love art i love music .
I been talking to alexia the whole day ! It is like so joyful!

I would really like to pray for alexia and erica lo, they are like so sad :(
I wish that then will cheer up soon .
I MISS THEM MANXZ ! THEIR TRUE SELF ! ~~~~ :(
BRING BACK,OH BRING BACK,OH BACK ALL OF MY FRIeNDS,TO ME!!
And for Meimei , hope that she will not get sick so often , (you know i cannot live w/o you !)

2009-08-01T21:36:00.000-07:00

I am so tired . LOL WOKE UP AT 7++ . MEIMEI's sis so funny ! go and sent me a prank message . Yesterday para weas so cool . Didn't lose all of my movements . So cool !!! Angela was like go eugenia! go eugenia! So so funny , she carry that doll around like a kid :) I want that doll . HAHAHAHH THIS IS JUST PLAIN JEALOUSLY !!!! LOL Angela actually wanted to gimmie that doll and she said dun tell courtney k ? HAHAAHAA Even though i really love the doll , she kissed it already . I dun want to be so extra , they are so 'love birds' together i just spoil it . I am so hungry !!!! BUT I ATE ALOT ALREADY !! CONTROL CONTROL !! AND DON"T GO TO BK's blog !!!!! lol

2009-08-01T05:47:00.000-07:00

K the last thing i shall do is emo . That is what meimei taught me, what should i do when i am about to turn emo ? Think of god ? hahhhahaha so spiritual . I thinki s hould shout at anyone again . For the ppl i shout at , i didn't mean to , I am so sorry i am sooo tired this few days , i really need a break ! I been having alot of mood swings . I will die man . My eyes are so tired it just wanna shut down , I will try not to shout at you all k ? I will try my best .

Meanwhile,
god i wanna pray for Chuncky , i pray that she will be well and so that we can continue chatting . Hope that during the period of getting well , she will not be so bored and maybe sms me during class . I am also sorry for shouting at people , i didn't mean to , i am so tired . I try not to be emo or just shut down k ? Forgive me ? Thanks i Love you !
Amen

2009-07-30T05:45:00.000-07:00

Was talking to yuwen and xueting

kok-kok-die said:
how is life w/o me ?

XT said:
lol why u suddenly ask this qustion ?

kok-kok-die said:
bad right ???
mood swing ?

XT said:
no
lol
hahhaha

kok-kok-die said:
hahaha just say YES
BABY JUST SAY YES !
hahahah

XT said:
life with u is great man hahaha we are fellow who serve god haha everyone plays a part
hahahaa

kok-kok-die says:
hahahah
nice one
wheee

XT says:
lol
so how got get any contact ?

kok-kok-die says:
GOT 2 !!!!!!!!!
YAY!!!!!!!!
1 confirm already
1 not sure

XT says:
hahah YAY praise GOD!

kok-kok-die says:
1 say yes i scared she joking with me
hahahah

XT says:
no la hahah
pray hahha

kok-kok-die says:
YES I WILL PRAISE THE LORD WITH ALL MY HEART
hahha
pray

XT says:
AMEN HAHAH nice one

kok-kok-die says:
HAHAHAHAH
YEAH!
HIGH FIVE !!!

YUWEN! has been added to the conversation.

kok-kok-die says:
hello
yuwen so funny

XT says:
lol
yoyooo

kok-kok-die says:
i add her into the convo she also dunno

YUWEN! says:
hello

kok-kok-die says:
hahahah

YUWEN! says:
I KNOW HOR!

kok-kok-die says:
slowwww

YUWEN! says:
BLEAH

kok-kok-die says:
hahahahahahaha

YUWEN! says:
I WATCHING SHOW

kok-kok-die says:
so how got contact ?

YUWEN! says:
NAH

kok-kok-die says:
anyway you got alot already xD
dun worry yours will grow

XT says:
nvm PRAISE THE LORD WITH ALL MY HEART

YUWEN! says:
LOL!
all random

kok-kok-die says:
YEAH PRAISE HIM FOR HE HAS DONE GREAT THINGS

XT says:
your will be done never mine
AMEN

YUWEN! says:
=.o
kok-kok-die says:
HIS BANNER OVER ME

XT says:
his LOVE

kok-kok-die says:
HIS LOVE IS LOVE

XT says:
his love
hahhaha

kok-kok-die says:
HAHAHAHAH
AMEN
WE ALL ARE SO HOLY!

YUWEN! says:
神经病

I am over the moon today , i love hanging out with meimei weiling and courtney ! I love you all loads ! YAY CANT WAIT FOR SAT!

ANNOUNCEMENT : i got new talking buddy ! SHE IS CHUNKY !!! (XUETING)

2009-07-26T03:07:00.001-07:00

RENDITION WAS SO COOL !!! SO WHOEVER WANNA COME TEXT ME !!!! OK cool i just heard that i am gonna follow up with an qi . This is so cool , is like time to come out of mummy(meimei)hands and do something. LOL so excited . yesterday my dad confiscated my phone cause my bill was like $80 so sad ! But actually i was like rejoycing . Cause i was like my freedom is finally here , when i go out , nobody can contact me ! NOT EVEN MY FAMILY!!!! Then he returned the phone this morning . I acutally felt quite sad . :( lol I wish that gomathi can get well soon and come to rendition with me next week!!! :D so excited ! YESTERDAY WAS SO FUN ! NOTHING COULD DESCRIBE IT !!!! I LOVE THE PART WHEN WE PLAYED GAMES AND DO THE TOILET PAPER CHEER .

I WANT NOBODY NOBODY BUT TOILET PAPER
I WANT NOBODY NOBODY BUT TOILET PAPER
I WILL CLEAN YOUR AHMMMEM
I WILL CLEAN YOUR AHMMMEM
TOILET PAPER , TOILET PAPER , TOILET PAPER !

I forgot the second one :( lol

2009-07-24T16:47:00.000-07:00

HAHAHAH . So funny , is like somebody in the class said that when i have sore throat , i sound like a cute little gal but when i no sore throat , ahem , i sound very mature . HAHAHAH Then i rather have sore throat and sound like a cute little gal!!!!! hahahahahah. MEIMEI SAY THAT WHEN I HAVE SORE THOAT IS BETTER CAUSE I DUN TALK SO LOUD!!!!:( Lol . OKAY < ABBY NEEDS PRAYING ! IS LIKE WHEN PRAYS TO SAY PRETTY , WHEN SHE ALREADY IS PRETTY ? AND GOD LOVE YOU FOR WHO YOU ARE BUT NOT HOW YOU LOOK LIKE MAN !!!!!!! (Bk say one!!! Thanks for letting me remember that ):) Oh how about i pray that you will have good results for chinese , and that you will not be sick . HAHAHAHA

EH EVERYONE WHO READ THIS , PRAY FOR GOMATHI , SERIOUSLY ! SHE IS VERY POOR THING .
FRISTLY pray that she will be stronger over the class thing .
SECONDLY pray that her fever will get better !!!'

GOMATHI IF YOU ARE READING THIS < GET WELL SOON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I MISS YOU :(

2009-07-23T03:51:00.000-07:00

Disha you want me to pray for you right ? Tell me what to pray for la . DUBDUB!!!!
HAHAHHAHHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA :)
Wa this is like a praying blog . !!! THIS IS ONLY UNTIL H1N1 end !!!!
lol ... joking lol

Things to pray for:(disha)
OK , exams? hmm you so smart . LOL ok
AND ???????????
STOP SAYING VULGUR!!!!!
Lol , ok disha pleased ?
And i am gonna stand up for you no matter what happens !
You are my frind MANXZZ !!!! BTW LOVE YOU LOADS

2009-07-23T02:24:00.000-07:00

Wa i keep eating and eating . Maybe i am hungry ? or maybe i am just using it as a cure for stress ? lol . I always eat. You ask me if i am free ? I will say hmmm you wanna bring me go where and eat ? LOL i am like so desperate for foood . SSSSOOOOO SSSSSSSSSSOOOOOOOOOOO HUNGREEEEEYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
HAHAHHAHA My primary school teacher always say , ask and you shall recieve . Ok now i try if it work , I will like laugh out really really loudly .

Eugenia:Do you have any food ?
M______:Do i look like i have ?
Eugenia:DUHHH!!!! Everytime i talk to you , you always much on something .
M______:REALLY ? No la that time i sweeping the floor !!!!
Eugenia::( Can you just find me food ?
M______:Do you think i am so free to find food for you ?
Eugenia: i guess not :(
M______:HAHAHA I will la what you want ?
Eugenia:I want you !
M______:Oi i cannot be eaten lor what you take me for ?
Eugenia:A best eating partner ?
M______:...
Eugenia:HELLO?? ARE YOU THERE ???
M________ appears to be offline .

Ok this is soooo dumb . I want food man .
If you are reading this , I have found my food already .
Cause i am looking for food now . LOL
OH Man , talking about food i think about those people who have poverty
:( dun worry guys , i will pray for you !!!

2009-07-22T01:25:00.000-07:00

I finally know her true self . I really dunno what to do . I despise her alot alot . Being with her for so long , she dun even trust me . I thought that she was a very very very nice person.People change, i guess . I am so dissapointed in her . Doing something wrong and like act that you did not do it , I love her as a friend so much you know . If you want to say that i am a betrayer .It is okay , be that way! Is that how you want to hurt people's feeling , be it . I guess trying to fit in , is just not the right thing for me . I should just find the people that are around the same characteristics as me . Laugh at stupid thing , without getting critize. I dun care anymore . Anyways thank you for the people who have prayed for me , cared for me . And thank you god for making 2 people to be able to come for the rendition . :)

2009-07-21T07:12:00.001-07:00

HAHAHHA LOL THIS IS THE PEOPLE I MUST PRAY FOR :
-Angela (she ask me to pray for her.)

-Courtney(Her tution may end and that she can come for cg and service.)

-AmandaWang(And that she can continue to come out for service . like not banned from church.)

-Weiling(Her sore throat may get better and come to school .)

- Meimei(Pray that she will be more sensible and will not say holy momo so much. ) MEIMEI PLEASE READ!

-Wong qi ying(Hope that she can still come for service , and that god will soften her mum's heart )

-Esther(Hope that you can get well soon ! I think you got well already !)

- the gal who got H1N1 ~lizhen's sheep~(i tried to pray for you k . dun be sad . GET WELL SOON!!! I STILL REMEMBER THE FIRST TIME I CAME INTO FOR CAREGROUP YOU WAS LEADING THE TEACHING ! you are cool rock on ! )

-Gomathi ( Hope that there will not be so many people who keep hurting you k . Dun angry , be happy ! and remember , the key of happiness is in your hands . only you can control your emotion !) Love ya~~

Yup this is the list of people that i really want to pray for , and all the sick people in the world ! And that many newcomers will be here for the rendition !And what ever happens, nothing is gonna seperate us from the love of god . AMEN~~

2009-07-18T05:00:00.000-07:00

yay my praying worked . she is much more better . lol i think everyone prayed for her thats why . now need to pray for esther and pray that the other ppl who dun have fever won't get fever . lol . esther so poor thing .:( WE love you esther just rest man , and happy bird day man .

2009-07-17T00:13:00.001-07:00

OH NO . MM sick , pray for her yo !! esp. qiying . HELLO SHEEPMATE ~~~PRAY FOR YOUR SHEPERDIE .OK ????? BTW MM GET WELL SOON > WE MISS YOUR HOLY MOMO !!!!!! xD lol really get well k we all miss you even though i just saw you yesterday !!!!! I miss you ~~~!!! I love you tooo!!!!!

2009-07-13T04:48:00.000-07:00

Finally gone online ~~~~!!!
I'm a friend of god ~~~lol lol
i think i might go insane . yeah
i zi-ing high lol
jumping like a crazy woman
lol

2009-06-25T23:41:00.000-07:00

I am very sad . :( cant sleep cant do anything my comp spoil . :( why ?? ? tell me why ?!?!?!?!?!? i am very bored leh can sms me ? please . :(

2009-06-24T01:43:00.000-07:00

I am so sad . Why ? i cant go church !!!! MUMMY WHY??????? lol i am so depressssssssed lol . Why am i laughing ? Sometimes it is just so hard to accept ppl la . :( lol . I cried for 3 whole days today yesterday and the day before yesterday . Haiz , i just have to accept it . I waanna cry my lungs out !!!! :( What if one day i get H1N1 ? will my mum still let me go church . OMG of course she can't i will pass the flu . K la just try and do things to impress my mum . why must my sis destroy my life . lol i am so sad . Pray for me?

2009-06-18T16:03:00.000-07:00

I lazy to post seh . ANYONE free to go out with me today ? CALL me . OMG i am so despo . lol if you free also can call me . YA~~~~!!! heheheheeh

HOSTPITAL

2009-06-16T06:04:00.000-07:00

WA today is a day that the god has made , we will rejoyce and be glag in it !!!! lol i LOVE the hospital yayayayayayayayayayaayay ~~~~~~~~~~~!!!!!! BEAN!!!! Still Can't get over it . LOL

2009-06-15T20:32:00.000-07:00

I am so tired . lol camp was fun and the 3 day alot of ppl keep banging my door , cause mei mei nvr take key . haha and i was sleeping like a pig . hahahah thank god for giving me a dream that they where outside or not they will be stuck out there liao . lol after the camp we went to wild wild wet . wheeeeeee so fun ~~~~~~!!!! and tired -.- lol

2009-06-11T06:21:00.000-07:00

I very lazy to post . tommorow camp . *yawn * idk how will it be like . very very very tired
i will miss LAO KOK KOK >.<>

2009-06-09T03:19:00.000-07:00

i help Eugenia to put this skin :D
Eugenia says hi. (told you she's lame)

ABIGAILLLL:D

2009-06-08T01:23:00.001-07:00

Just came back from malaysia . so sian . lol MY CRUSH HELD HANDS WITH ME TWICE . k this is stupid lol . My crush also buy me waterbottle and we shared a lolipop . Haiz i will miss him , i think that he will be going to australia soon. I think i will see him in another 5-10 years time . I 've been crushing on him since i was 7 years old . Long period of time huh . lol I HOPE TO SEE YOU SOON >.< AND PLEASE EAT MORE TO MAKE ME LOOK SKINNIER THANK YOU . lol ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

2009-06-04T04:05:00.001-07:00

Lol i am like so lazy to post , oh ya i dun think i am gonna post for the holis! HA!!! lol I wanna cycle play badminton and HELP people !!!! >.<

2009-06-01T16:26:00.000-07:00

Yesterday , my mum keep scolding me for no reason , i am like so sad . Helped her from 9.30 to 5.30 around 8 hours my time was like totally wasted should have gone out . I am so bored , wish someone can call me now ? I mean not my mum anyone except for my mum . I was so scared to use comp yesterday cause i scared that my mum will smash it on the floor . I wanna eat ice-cream i can feel it running down my throat . YUMMY . OMG i am like going crazy here i better stop talkin be4 i really go crazy . AND I CANT WAIT FOR TODAY CAUSE I AM PLAYING BADMINTON , feeling envious gimmie a call !!!!!! lol

SUNDAY ...

2009-05-31T02:04:00.000-07:00

So lazy to post today awww man should not have cr8 a blog . LOL . Yesterday was so nice , i hang out after church till 8.30 . LOL this is like the first time of my life . Today was a bad day , i got kick up from bed got nagged and scoldings , then go help my mum my mum keep scolding me , i was like so tired she dun let me rest . HELLO, i am like still a kid . K maybe i am more than a kid but still a half kid la . I was like so GLAD when amanda join our church lol . Although _______ maybe is soon gonna join us and i am a bit angry about it but everybody deserves a second chance right ? Hope that i can accept the fact . :)
This is a conversation with me and stacy , although is like nth i think she really encourages me like alot . TY~~~~!!!!

kok-kok-die says:
hello

& I will try, to fix you says:
hello haha

kok-kok-die says:
Long time never talk , how are you ?

& I will try, to fix you says:
im good
how are you doing in stc

kok-kok-die says:
fine , getting fatter day by day
lol

& I will try, to fix you says:
serious ah
why!

kok-kok-die says:
no la , lol
i grew 2 cm
lol i must play badminton more than can be taller than you

& I will try, to fix you says:
HAHAHA whats your height!

kok-kok-die says:
156
so short right ?
i am like one of the shortest in class

& I will try, to fix you says:
HAHAHA no la come on dont sayt hat bout yourself
its not good to be too tall too

kok-kok-die says:
ya hard to find bf
lol
they give me a booklet for the overweight ppl
then they ask me , have you been laughing?
i been like laughing everyday
they say will lose weight
in the end it is still the same according to the teacher

I really like miss talking to her after she graduated , thank god that she was online today and we could catch up a little . Wish that everyting will go smoothly in her life ~~~!!!

WOW!My sis hate her science teacher . lol ?

2009-05-27T04:14:00.000-07:00

I am so tired of everything i hope that i sleep and next morning i will see myself next to God . That means i am like dead ? LOL? I was like actually looking forward for today you know , cause like i know today is gonna be a brand new start and everything will go out well . Today Mrs lee ar , i accidentally laugh and say "speed " than she say "Girls , go back to your own seat , no more of playing , only solitude " I dun really like her , looking at her makes me feel like puking . Lol . Then recess bell rand 5 seconds after she say go back to our seats . I quickly let out a loud loud '' YES!!!!!'' lol she stared at me ? Then for CFT she say you all need to do reflections . i was like ok , i look at the paper

I _____________________(doing something in school ) least because ___________________________________________________ .

I wrote ,

I eat Ice-cream (doing something in school ) least because the teacher say that i am fat then they will scold me if i eat ice-cream . I will cry .

Lol ,then school finish around there . I went to Hannah house i went to play Badminton . Then took pictures , after awhile we went swimming for no reason . Then went sauna for awhile to dry myself . Lol then i went home Mrs Yup call me i was like okokok then my day is like almost over now talking to Aman and MM . So tired . Btw I love ABBY her blog help me alot .
BTW anybody knows how to make their blog nicer ? and insert chatbox ? help me !!!!! I will treat the person Ice-cream~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~!!!! Feel tempted ? Help me !

Hmm i guess that your laptop is even better than friendship.

2009-05-26T00:26:00.000-07:00

After Blogging so much about you , WONG QI YING , i guess you still dun get it . Its okay . I am on my own now . And if you want your shin pad , you call me for it . I am not going remind myself for you . Cause you are just not worth it . You can live in your world now , dun count me in . Never knew i can get hurt like this . Nevermind lol guess who inspired me to blog ? Siyuan . lol ya i saw her blog , then like got nth then i laugh then i try to make my own blog . Yay i did it . In the morning i walk walk walk and nearly fell , then nearly fell nearly killed me . i was like screaming , half crying and laughing . It was very very funny and Nia was like OMG sorry for pushing you are you okay ? K at least she knew how to apologise . Good friend:) . Lol then i went to meet Ms quek i dun even think that i can go for the WFL . :( got the course . Sian , I wannna go churh !!!!!! Dun even know my mum let me anot . I am just like fading away . After Ms quek meet us , we went back to class then our class not in classroom . We went into the hall . We called Mr Dill like for so long .

Scene : Outside Hall

Me: Mr Dill , Mr Dill , Mr Dill
Mr Dill : Scratches his head , wipe the sweat , laugh at the laptop .
Me: Psssssssssss Psssssssssss . Mr Dill !!!!!

(After a few minutes of doing that .)

Mr Dill : Huh you call me ?
Me: No la no la , hahaha just kidding . Lol we have been calling you for a few minutes liao .
Mr Dill : Sorry . Wad did you call me for ?
Me: Is our class here ? (Woah finally I managed to call him . So happy !)
Mr Dill : Wait i go check .

(A few minutes passed again.)

Mr Dill : Your class is in Cyber Home . Smiles at me .
Me: Wad? I just pass by the cyber home .

LOL i just think that i am just too cool man lol .
Walk down , up,down,up. I am so prroo .

Next Dance , the teacher say wa i give up on you la . i was thinking , am i so fat i cannot dance . But she asked me to lead warm up . I have to admit , i am good . Okay i am like bragging lol .
During the test she say i never improve and said that i am shy ?
Me shy ? so not . I am just fat lol . Then after school i go tiong Vw was there she was like screaming eugenia then i smiled at her cause that really brighten up my day . i was so moody for the whole day and somebody so nice shout my name . lol . Then i go home my D U D A was at home . I was so sad , he gave me a bowl of soup for Me and my sis. My sis's soup got alot of things like fish meat vegetable . Then mine ? plain soup ? I am angry . Today has not gone out well , tomorrow will be better.
" God gives us a brand new day everday "

Bored yawn

2009-05-25T04:13:00.000-07:00

Haizz never even "suck seed " in evaxing one , everytime try also in the end no more ,or no people . sian yay first blog post . Zzz i am so bored i can eat a bear . My D U D A keep on scolding me i am feeling so irratated wa later he see die manxxxxxx. I hope tomorrow can do CIP!!!!! Go hostpital and do CIP !!!! I dun understand , is like Wong qi ying dun wanna call me , her prob la , wanna tell her Friday got training also can't too bad la . Her prob , later she scold me i dun give a damn .I wanna tell her that i wanna return her shin pad also cannot cause when the new coach come , no shin pad have to run extra rounds . I am so kind to even think about her and yet she dun give a damn . I am washing my hands out of her . I dun give a damn anymore . (OMG for that moment i sounded like her mother) Nevermind at least this post is to show that i really got like "remind"her and got prove say that it is not my problem that she doesn't wanna call me back . Yay anyways i still think that it is a nice day that god has given us ! Lol firstly in the morning i tot that abby will not come , but she came , then i have another partner to play with , yay for abby hip hip horrraaaayyyyy !!! Lol than afternoon eat with MM & WL , WL was wearing jacket in a hot hot day while walking to MM house . HAAHAHAHHAAAHAA later tio heatstroke . Then she went back to school to return things and find my waterbottle then i went to eat ice cream with MM. So funny she didn't know that i am about to follow her lol . And today i said a bad bad bad bad word . And i say sorry .(Okay of cause la say bad things must say sorry) I think i am so lame . ZZZ i want to sleep . Trying to love you lots !!!